Exhale...finally
Such a childish gesture one I haven’t been able to shake. I, a child shrugged my shoulders little mountains, peaks already icy, I lifted them looked over my right one saw no one there and committed to “I don’t care.” No kicking and screaming the hurt away, face didn't turn colors no trail of tears down my gumdrop cheeks- I heaved all the thinking about you in one breath washed away my want for you with a solitary tear. I didn’t care! Really… couldn’t care any more that you didn’t want to see hug know me. Stupid pangs surfaced making my heart-hiccup and I knew I still did care. Wanting didn’t help nine years of wishes blown away the smoke cleared you still weren’t back. My other half Mi otro yo? If I am you and you are me did you abandon yourself too? I wanted to be more than a bastard no box full of recuerdos under my bed to sneak peeks at when the missing you hurt too much. Nothing to remind me of your absence except you’re abs