Wednesday, April 2, 2014

April Showers

April showers
bring May chiles
to last till agosto.
Chile
fruit of the goddess
fruit for the hociconas
gapping mouths
fire breathing women.
Only goddesses swallow
you Chile,
fire for the soul
stir up the parables
that steam up their throat
regurgitating the past
tristes recuerdos
sudor en la frente
un nudo en la garganta
Pero
Bien agusto me como
mis cenas mi boca
enchilada pero así
bien empicada a los chiles
de Don Edward.
“Granpo,” or “Popo”
same thing
he was the same thing
love to his nietos.
Dichosos son los que
disfrutan el fruto
del amor que nace
envuelto en esos chiles
de su planta que
a Sarita le heredo.
Es mi angelita
guardia de mi corazón
mi dulce compañía
ahora y en la hora de nuestra
primavera, otoño, invierno
largas noches de verano.
For all seasons.


Thursday, February 20, 2014

3rd and Main (newer version)

He was never more right "Government IS the problem". 

Right across the street
from the back side of the Ronald
Reagan State Building, 
people are sprawled out, hungry
cold, tired, pale around the edges
an imagine struggling to be seen.
The entrance to the building
is on Spring Street,
around the corner
where, like the street’s name,
everyone has it in their step.
You can see it, they walk
fast, the way people who
have somewhere to go
walk fast.
On Main, the side where the entrance
isn’t early pedestrians
scramble too
to get to…get away.
“Get away, shoo”
They shoo away
panhandler’s pleadings with a turn of the head
tune them out with a blast of their car stereo
hoping the radio waves will push them away. 

In the shadows of the Ronald Reagan
“the great communicator” State Building
people shake and shiver in the streets
flag their hunger, frustration,
sickness in proximity of governmental grandeur.
Is it the early morning chill licking their scaly skin?
Do they shake and shiver for a fix?
Or from the ghosts of past wars that harass
them? They scream at and argue with those voices to no end.
They didn’t fight in wars that Reagan orchestrated.
His M.O.
have nations kills their own. Daddy Reagan provided
financial and military aid
to right wing governments in
El Salvador, Nicaragua, Guatemala.
Funding his campaign to eradicate “communism”
en esas tierras with arms-for-hostages deal
he made with Iran. All part of a greater plan
to down the indigenous, down the students
down labor, push down all uprisings
crush them down till their eyes
grew streams of red
and heart of resistance crumbled.
He put them out
those hearts On fire.
Like steel blades against a ledge
Shits went off.
Services, mental health,
preschool, arts program, benefits for the vets
sharply cut, messy
murder scene, a crime the way
the government disregards people.
They, the people on skid row could just be seeing red like late notices
piled up on the dinning room table
Is it going to take
a crime to get out of this one? Here we like to call it a hustle
Gotta stop the shivering in front of the back entrance
to that building, Ronal Reagan once again
with the cold shoulder.


Kitty-corner from
La Costeña Bar with it’s
all black matte walls, red trim,
plywood palm trees leaning towards
each other, people-
the people, shake and shiver
gathered underneath an elm tree, slap hands
in the middle of a traffic meridian
smoke on butts, sip out of steamy cups.
What a sight
Cardboard boxes piled up to build
a fortress big enough to make a
kid’s eyes and imagination go wild,
but homelessness is no child’s play
and although it never rains in Southern Cali
44 degrees at 4 o’clock in the morning
don’t play.
Skid row-
an image wavering
on the fringes of revitalization…just missed it
out of sight, always out of mind.
Like a head in the clouds, or condos
that scrape the LA skyline giving inhabitants
the feel that they’ve risen above it all.

A woman leans against a fence, sits
on her concrete throne
tugs at a wrinkled not so hefty trash bag,
stretches the edges
till they turn gray
pulling for an extra inch of shelter.
You think she’s a displaced “welfare queen”
fantasizing about the days
when she had 3 Cadi’s in the garage?
Now the only cruising she does is outside
the shelter around soup kitchen time.

Welfare queen
Her glamour draws you in
see how she was living
paycheck to paycheck
trying  to stretch that dollar
like a Hefty bag- but she already
knows that she just can’t cover it all.
She's living off of uncle
SAMs handouts they tell you
just a distraction away from the tax cuts
Uncle Sam is giving his
Richie friends
Exxon, JPMorgan, Chase and them
And any other WASP
Who's dignity
and pride in doing work
merits a little reward
"Don't worry we'll throw down
some crumbs
as we cut programs
That's that trickle down theory on y'all asses
Hope and IOUs control the masses!"
Stop the Symbolic violence
Where is good ole Uncle Sam now?
He’s not going to bail her out
too much government is a problem
remember. Remember that as they
bail out, Wall Street, Banks of America and Autos.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Las beisbolistas


A version of this poem will be published in "Mexican American Baseball in the Pomona Valley," the 5th book of a 6 book series co-authored by Richard Santillan. Jump on this raza! 










Sometimes they played in fields
smaller than the men’s
at earlier times too, right before the men hit the lots.
But these mujeres were no warm up acts!
Lit up muchos corazones with their game,
their talent, their passion ended up catching some
pitcher or catcher’s eye from the men’s league.  Like a line drive
right down the middle of their corazón their love united many of
them in happily ever after diamond field of love…hotter than a double header.
Las beisbolistas, Tomboys, Aztecas trading their aprons for a chest protector
not torteando tortillas on Sunday, they are punching the pocket of their gloves
ready for the heat of that grounder.

Mujeres beisbolistas made me cry.
Took me like a child down that lane.
My little arm hooked to my mother’s elbow
walking safely down the street.
Little arm that could throw a ball fast
directly at a bully’s right calf.
“Don’t tell me girls can’t play ball!
Next one will be a homerun. I call right field.”
Mujeres beisbolistas? Yeah, women can play.
They do so for the fun, the win, the pride and the high.
For the bonds, the appreciation and even the aches.  They play
for the dream the “What if I never had to give this up, have fun and play 
for a living, never grow up, play the game I love”.  
Mujeres could fill up any field with their dreams.  

Béisbol a game of tradition.  Las beisbolistas broke racist, 
classist, gendered barriers one crack of the bat at a time.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

urgent strides


NYE13


To invoke
the beach
a cold night
sand clumpy from the
mist that falls
on my crown like pixie dust,
with each step I’m deeper in it.
Walking in fog
like walking through clouds.
A chill strikes my spine
shakes me like turbulence, but I tread on
towards the waves possessed.
I come here dropping off crumbs
and leave with gems, verses, stanzas
inspired by grains of sand, fractured
lights in the water, sandy cat’s purrs
and opulence.
It has me surrounded.
The richest Cali real estate,
true blue glass house, one with patina walls
even! Coastal luxury living invokes fantasies
I can only stroll by. The waves dark and bubbly
champagne gathered in a giant cauldron.
I take strides across The Strand, my hand across the page trying
to find a way.

Urgent strides
breath, body
going through
marathon
I put myself through.
Had to be there…
there
a minute ago.
I’m here
but already
have to be
over there.
Shoulders, joints
a coil about to unwind but gotta push it down harder, more, cram more,
my fucken suitcase.
Whatever, it worked.
Invoked.
Don’t stop writing do it for the creation, for the fun for the fuck, for the applause, doing it without it.
Strides, precision
A needle in a haystack
Find it! I can and I will
No le pegue al gordo,
still gotta feel lucky.
I help you find
I'll help you find
Cause you've lost
I'm a finder, a finder.
I'm a good find.

It takes precision to find
Often Translated
Into pressure
Grinding teeth that's
How fine those nuggets are
Ideas, fine as molar dust.
And here I find myself
Amidst another ocean reference
Like coming out of fog. Lights dancing with, on top the fog

Urgent strides to the center of something
leave you breathless.
"Don't go in circles
You're not in the circus!"
But still be a clown
Invoking
With my upside down frown
And big shoes to fill
Urgent
It's an emergency
Do or die.
I does to take these strides
Must, urgent, move out my way
Elbows to your sides
As I deliver this
Urgent
And focused?
the farce of multitasking.
urgent bound to miss something

Misrepresenting my urgency
Looking at the tics go by year after year. Got a crick in my neck and tennis elbow from it. While my work before me goes discarded
Carcasses turning leather
In the heat of my jealousy
Envy- misrepresenting my urgency.
"Are we there yet? There yet?" Lose sight of my surroundings. Retrain the mind, discipline- soldiers changing around the hour= always ready for a fight. How bad do you want it?
How bad?  
How bad?
Stop worrying ‘bout the bad 
Say it like  you  mean  it
And mean it.
Write it then go over it
Like a second hand
Second guessing
Each word
Especial
Know what I mean?
Did I know what I meant?

xxoo,

Musings of a night owl
rising
From the inside out
At dawn.

BLM Owes Me Nothing!

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